I must admit, when I didn’t receive emails the first few months after I created this, I gave up on it and never checked back. Well, 3-4 years later and here I am, typing this entry with two butterflies I received in my inbox while I was away. There were only two stories when I checked back in on my email, and while that number is painfully small, it is also the biggest I could have dreamed of. It meant I had helped someone, somewhere, find a way to mitigate their self harm. I have responded to both now, and one replied already, which means a lot knowing they’re still out there surviving life~

I stopped self harming back when I first started this project, and I’ve been getting better each day since, but there are still times when I find myself depressed. It does get better, sorry to sound cliche, but it also takes time and is a constant, daily struggle. I’m still here if you guys ever need me, and I will be checking my email more often now if anyone still needs me~

yours till the world ends, babypanda

Libby’s butterfly, 12/28/14

Seraphina’s butterfly, 3/3/14

 

so i experimented drawing a huuuuuuuge butterfly on my leg….

I’m a bit too logy right now to edit these pictures together right now, so here it is in fragments.

most i have left unnamed for your taking….

My beautiful nonpareil I have named Mír. It is the Czech word for peace.

The rest, I believe, are yours to claim for a name. Just email me to dedicate one. yourbutterflyprojects@gmail.com

Here they are!

this is a collage of all the photos put together so you can get the entire picture:))))

more is coming. i promise.

Well. I have made more butterflies, including the most amazing yet. I have to try to edit the photos to make it look whole, because I was unable to photograph the entire butterfly in one frame. So the end result of my editing may look a bit cubist, but bear with me. My email inbox is empty! Please, send me your butterflies if you are unable to post them directly here. I want this to succeed. yourbutterflyprojects@gmail.com

yours till the chain saws, sillybabypanda

masculinify the butterfly project

So, apparently, the Butterfly Project is not man enough for guys who cut. So. I need ideas, people! What should guys draw on themselves in place of butterflies? It has to be a simple thing anyone could draw without butchering it too badly. Post to my Facebook page, send me an email (yourbutterflyprojects@gmail.com), or comment here your ideas!

yours til the butter flies ;), sillybabypanda

If you would like to request a butterfly, please feel free to! I will draw and name one after whomever you choose. I have plenty of arm space. You can either like this post or send me an email to request butterflies. (yourbutterflyprojects@gmail.com)

I am doing the butterfly project both for myself and for others. Some butterflies are in honor of others, some for myself, and some drawn by others :))) I don’t cut, but sometimes I too will feel the urge to do so. But I draw butterflies or write poetry instead.

If you want to know more of my story, here is a link that will take you to what I wrote in March of this year. I am trusting that you will not judge me after reading it, nor will you overreact. I am strong enough. I can survive, and I will. http://suicideproject.org/2012/02/this-is-my-story-i-guess/

Please, if someone you know cuts, well, first off, tell an adult and get him or her help. But also let them know about the Butterfly Project. It really does help. (at least for me it does) I am not the first, nor am I the last, to create a website, etc. for the Butterfly Project. I also did not create it. But, my hope is that with this site, I can help to spread the word about this and reach more people. So tell your friends about the Butterfly Project. Join the Butterfly Project and open people’s eyes to the very real issue that is self-harming (cutting, burning, self-poisoning, etc.). Oh, and FYI, March 1st is Self-Harm Awareness Day!

That’s all for now!

Yours till the cat meows, sillybabypanda

so this time around i’ve named them :)

The orange and blue butterfly is named Matt. Anywho, next butterfly….

The black one is Russell (the character from Up), aka Matt. This is a different Matt. He was part of my work group during my mission trip this year to Charlotte, NC. He also got stuck with depression. We are great friends.

Pink one’s for rainalicia. She is a fellow SP member. Her name was the first name that came to mind as I was naming butterflies. So I dedicated it to her :)

Green guy is Nate. He is my brother-by-choice, not relation :)) Therefore, I love him like a brother. He is also known by AtTheEnd on SP. Nate is one of my bester friends, and earned this butterfly.

Last but not least, yellow is for subtle_bloodstains. Same thing as rainalicia. I sure hope she’s all right….

So that’s all for now. I shall also be taking requests. Stay strong, guys, and thanks. I will also be drawing some on my backpack for a bit more permanance. And a little bit of publicity :) at school. Like The Butterfly Project on Facebook! There ought to be a link or something at the bottom of the main page, soooooo yay! I’m officially worldwide XD

muah! muah!, sillybabypanda

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